I find that so often I am stuck in my own head. Constantly working and re-working my thoughts and writing blogs and books in my mind. I always thought that because I didn't and don't write very often it was because I didn't have ideas or wasn't a very good writer but now I wonder if it's just because I am firstly a procrastinator and secondly because I truly struggle to get out of my head.
I am so 'mindly challenged' (I am aware this is not a thing, but I didn't know how else to describe it), that I dream incredibly vividly and can nearly always remember every minute detail of the dream when I awake. I have a few recollections of dreams I had when I was a small child that are still as fresh in my mind now as they were when I had them. Still conjuring up the same feelings and fears as they did back then.
I had quite a horrible dream a few nights ago which neither my boyfriend or I could figure out where it had come from - we had not watched anything on TV nor had I read anything that could have culminated in my mind producing said nightmare but dream it nonetheless I did. Looking for a silver lining I realised the idea could be turned into a novel.
This is where most of my book ideas have stemmed from, but despite apparently being quite prolific in the ideas department I simply cannot seem to dig them out of my grey matter and embed them into the page. I have to wonder now if it's because I am afraid to do it? Are the crippling fears of both success and failure causing me to remain safe in my cranium? How do I get out of my noggin and get into the real world and if I manage this what will that actually mean? Answers on a postcard to PO Box The Mind of Pin Up Pantry...