Mmm Bop, Fashion

So, the honest truth is that I've been having a massive crisis of confidence lately.  I always thought I knew my own personal style; but at the moment I don't feel like I do.  I know that a person's "style" evolves and changes as they do, but I had felt very comfortable in my 'vintage' bubble.

I guess at heart I'm a rockabilly / psychobilly type girl; I love a band tee, a wiggle skirt, capri pants and heels for days, but my job isn't really conducive to the heels side of the equation.  I think opening the restaurant and having the freedom to wear what I want has been one of the major factors in my 'CoW' (Crisis of Wardrobe).  I've always had to dial down my looks; cover up my tattoos and have 'normal' hair and I think being so used to that has made me freak out somewhat about being out there again.

I've always loved fashion, even when I was little, and tried to learn designers and model names and wanted to be able to recognise a garment someone was wearing as a specific designer, but then I discovered vintage fashion and I stepped away from the designers of the day and focused on learning more about the vintage aesthetic.  (I'm by no means an expert in this field but I've done some excessive research!)  

At the moment, I'm in this weird transition between being very 50's and also a little bit "90's metal"; wanting to wear flatform shoes with cleated soles and shit loads of rings (again not conducive to running a restaurant!).  With fashion and music being so intrinsically linked and me recently rediscovering my love for bands like Black Sabbath, AC\DC and Motörhead I think this is where this shift is coming from.

I realise also that people who have a very specific style that is all their own are usually people who have a very strong sense of who they are and this is something I don't have; as a person who really struggles with self-love, I've always emulated someone else instead of trying to be true to me (not knowing really who you are or having a sense of self does make that difficult!).  Perhaps now is the time to experiment and delve into who I am a little more and see how that reflects in my wardrobe?

With all that said, my next post will likely be a selection of outfits of the day!

Stay Hep, Cats