It's been a long-ass time since I posted here. Life, and work (mainly work), has definitely got in the way and prevented me from spending time blogging about food & drink.
I have been pondering over the last few weeks (where I have had the odd few minutes to let my brain catch up), about what I do with this blog & website. I love having it and I love having a place to talk about food, wine & cocktails, however, I'm not sure that it is getting enough of my attention, or, that it is being used to its fullest. My pondering has also been linked to how I feel about food & wine at the moment. Yes, it's my job and sometimes the passion waxes and wanes (because of doing it all the time and because, naturally, our passion for things does as we are only human), but I feel that since having had COVID in 2020 and utterly losing my sense of taste and smell, my palate has changed irreparably. It has left me concerned that I am no longer capable of tasting and smelling things properly, and therefore, bereft of a purpose in life. Yes, this seems incredibly melodramatic, but when you find something you have a passion and interest in, it can feel like losing a limb if you are suddenly unable to participate in it in the same way. It also feeds into a long-held and deep-set fear that I am really not very good at my job... and as now I am feeling unable to taste things 'properly', that fear is being realised.
The question is, do I continue on this path and talk about wine and food in the same way, or do I retreat and let the "professionals" take over? And, if I do continue to talk about wine here, how do I do it? Do I follow the Marissa A. Ross method and just basically write about whatever wine I am drinking at the time, or is that just too much of a copy cat thing? I'm not even sure that I'm even 'qualified' to talk about it anymore.
For those of you who do read me (thank you mum, Tony and that other person I don't know), what do you want to see here, or are you kind of over it and think I should just shut the fuck up!?
There are far too many questions in this blog post for my liking. I need a glass of wine...